Monday, March 02, 2009

Drowning

I sometimes feel overwhelmingly suffocated by circumstances beyond my control- the emotions of people around me, the sensation of incompetence at work, the situations I fall into inadvertently.

I get so angry with myself that I get so stressed, and then I worry and worry and worry about how I'm going to fix things. It's like a horrible combination of nerve-wracking suspense and breath-shortening anticipation.

Hate this tenseness bubbling inside me.

2 comments:

la_flash March 3, 2009 at 10:02 AM  

... and you worry about you worrying.. the endless cycle continues.

yeah, i know how does it feel.

jeanny March 3, 2009 at 11:44 AM  

Yes, so true- worrying about worrying is awful. AWFUL.

I'm glad to know others go through the same thing.