Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Summer Lethargy

I can't seem to break the habit of neglecting my blog. I don't know why that is ... it shouldn't be this difficult to update on a daily basis when I sit in front of a computer for at least 8 hours a day.

Maybe it's because I have nothing (nothing) to write about.

Well ... that's not true. I watched "Julie & Julia" last night. I watched "Funny People" last week. I have been going out quite frequently, seeing friends. I switched phones (joined the iPhone brigade, lemming that I am) to test for a month before I decide on my permanent new phone. I've been working (somewhat) and I have a whole new crew of people to get used to.

So why the lethargy?

Perhaps it's because it's summertime. I get lazy and sleepy in the summer, incapacitated by the sun and the endless hours of daylight. It's exhausting, being in the warmth! California's sun is brutal, too, and my computer-screen-acclimated eyeballs are not used to being seared anymore.

I will write a review on "Julie & Julia" soon (or soon-adjacent).

In the meantime, I think I've figured out the real root of my lack of blogging: socializing.

Last month, right around the 4th of July, I decided on a whim that I was going to be social. Not just social, but SOCIAL.

Backtracking ... I am a Gemini, and while I don't believe in a lot of the mumbo-jumbo out there, I agree with one fact: there are two distinct facets to my personality. I am either a recluse, going into hiding and totally ignoring everyone around me, or I am a social butterfly- out every night, going to more than one place per night, seeing everyone I know.

Pretty much all through my stint on "G-Force," I was a hermit. I didn't do much, I didn't see many people. When confronted with change, my defense mechanism is generally to close up and hide so I can watch the changes and figure out my next move. "G-Force," being my first show at Sony, was my observation period. At the end of the show, knowing I would be on vacation for two weeks, I went all-out in the opposite direction.

I thought two weeks would be plenty. I would see all the people that I haven't seen since the end of last year. I would go to all the new restaurants and bars and such that I had been wanting to try. I would watch all the movies I missed. Two weeks sounded like a reasonable amount of time in which to do all this.

Oh, how wrong I was.

I also didn't take into consideration the fact that I would be meeting new people. NEW people. People that I now feel like I should see again. I forgot about that whole "befriending strangers" thing, silly me.

So now I have some new friends ... add a couple days, that should cover that, right?

Of COURSE not. I forgot about the August birthdays and how people like to go out and do things when it's sunny.

Basically, for the past three weeks, I have nothing to show for my life other than dozens of text messages detailing where in L.A. I should be at any given time.

I'm going to try to break out of this horribly vicious cycle (which probably means I'll turn right back into a hermit again) and reach a happy medium (is there such a thing?).

Although, to be honest, once work starts picking up, I probably won't have time for anything but work, which solves my problem for me. Ugh.