Wednesday, May 05, 2010


According to graphology, here's my personality, based off specific letter and then based off my writing as a whole:

- The right-ward slant of my cursive indicates that I am open to the world around me and like to socialize with other people.
- The small size of my letters indicates that I am focused and can concentrate easily. I tend to be introspective and shy.
- The closed loops of my L's indicate that I am feeling tense and restricting myself in some way.
- The closed loops of my E's indicate that I tend to be skeptical and am unswayed by emotional arguments.
- The points at the tops of my S's indicate that I am intellectually probing and like to study new things. The higher and pointier the peaks, the more ambitious I am.

I am moderately outgoing. My emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart-rending stories. In fact, I can be kind, friendly, affectionate, and considerate of others. I have the ability to put myself into the other person's shoes.

I will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes I will be happy, the next day I might be sad. I have the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychologists call introverts and extroverts. This is because I am in-between. Psychology calls me an ambivert. I understand the needs of both types. Although we will get along, I will not tolerate anyone that is too "far" out. I don't sway too far from one way or the other.

When convincing me to buy a product or an idea, a heart-rending story could mean a great deal to me. I put myself in the same situation as the person in the story, but I will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. I am an expressive person. I outwardly show my emotions. I may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

I am a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. I weigh both sides of an issue, sit on the fence, and then will decide when I finally have to. I basically don't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

I tend to write a bit smaller than the average person. When a person's letters are small and tiny, this indicates an ability to focus and concentrate. This character trait is a huge asset in careers like math, science, race car driving, and flying planes. However, if I write tiny all the time, I will also display characteristics of someone who is socially introverted. I will often sit on the sidelines and watch others get the attention at parties. I might be willing to open up and be warm, but only in small groups or a select group of people. When I am busy working on a project, it is common for all other noises and distractions to just fade away, and my ability to focus is incredible. When I say "I didn't hear you," I really mean, I didn't hear you.

I will demand respect and will expect others to treat me with honor and dignity. I believe in my ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. I have a lot of pride.

I am secretive. I have secrets which I do not wish to share with others. I intentionally conceal things about myself. I have a private side that I intend to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in my past.

I have a desire for attention. People around me will notice this need. I may fulfill this need in a variety of ways, depending on my character.

In reference to my mental abilities, I have a very investigating and creating mind. I investigate projects rapidly because I am curious about many things. I get involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but soon I must slow down and look at all the angles. I probably get too many things going at once. When I slow down, then I become more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, I must slow down to do it. I then decide what projects I have time to finish. Thus I finish at a slower pace than when I started the project.

I have the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. My mind thinks quickly and rapidly in the investigative mode. I can learn quickly, investigate more, and think faster. I can then switch into my low gear. When I am in the slower mode, I can be creative, remember longer, and stack facts in a logical manner. I am more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

My true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told me that I am not a great person, and I believed them. I also have a fear that I might fail if I take large risks. Therefore I resist setting my goals too high, risking failure. I don't have the internal confidence that frees me to take risks and chance failure. I am capable of accomplishing much more than I am presently achieving. All this relates to my self-esteem. My self-concept is artificially low. I will stay in a bad situation much too long ... why? Because I am afraid that if I make a change, it might get worse.

It is hard for me to plan too far into the future. I kind of take things on a day-to-day basis. I may tell you my dreams but I am living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loudly I speak, look at my actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness- people not believing in and loving themselves. I am an example of someone living with a low self-image, because my innate self-confidence was broken.

I am sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect my ego when I feel hurt. I poke people harder than I get poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

I have a healthy imagination and display a fair amount of trust. I let new people into my circle of friends. I use my imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

I have a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life.

I am stuck in the middle, afraid to take action. I have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundaries. It would be easy to work with me on a team, because I will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundaries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk all over me if I'm not careful.

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That's a lot of words, based on a single page of writing.

For the most part, these are very true. Some of these things aren't true- or maybe I'm in denial and they really are true. Who can know for certain?

It was an interesting exercise, at any rate. There seem to be a lot of handwriting analysis that can be done online, or over snail mail if you're so inclined. I've never seen a therapist or a counselor or anything, but I imagine that this feeling is what I would have should I go to one. I'm completely overwhelmed by myself. Maybe this will lead into a self-fulfilling prophecy- I write the way I write because these things are what I will end up becoming.

I don't know, I don't care, and I don't intend to let any of these things, good or bad, affect my life. Something to think about, yes, and something to while away the time so I can distract myself from other things that are going on...